20100501

Interlude - Mom Condition

As i wake in the icy Lab, Jiha cal.


" Alaf, balik la, mama dari pagi tadi nangis. Tangan kanan mama tak rasa apa2"

Dr. Sithi, Im so sorry. This is the sign im going to fail again. I hope u can give me D so that i can do my project. If you want, i Wlll repeat this paper.

So, aku balik.

She was very weak,her voice sound very weak.

"Pagi tadi mama bangun, then tak rasa apa kat tangan kanan, kaki kanan. Mama Nah (our neighbour ) datang dengan adik dia untuk urut. Mama cuba baca Alquran, tapi mata nampak kabur. Pas kena urut, dah boleh la rasa sikit"

Thats, if feel during the Radiotherapy is normal,kinda. But the Radiotherapy is only starting next thursday.

Doc have say this before. And its happening.

Dear Lord, please dont hurt my fam anymore. Just take me please.

For the present, go to Hell with the future.

4 comments:

fnd sam said...

dude, bersabarlah...

fatin korsmate said...

sabar k...nseb aku pun lbeh krg ko.bpk aku dh bp bln xsihat.kdg2 xleh bgn katil.mcm2 kitorg dh wt,ubat moden,tradisional,dukun.
tp kite kne kuat.aku ank sulung,aku xnk hampakan parents aku.aku pk tu je.
kuatkn smgt

milah hasan said...

all i can say is, be strong.

Myth said...

farah: tu la..aku cuba

Fatin korsmate: aku heran gak. Fatin malim ke fatin saiha.haha. aku suspek fatin saiha. tu la..tapi spoil dah target untuk fiz stat dgn km..ntah la..aku baru leh terima td, so baru start study td. hopefully boleh la. tapi ten...benda ni mmg doc dah jangka dulu. Since tumor ni mbesar (kalau ko folow up ko tau la kisah dia), sooner of later akan touch kat nerve, then if sampai kat medula, function pernafasan n ritma jantung akan terganggu. Aku xboleh nak byang apa yg akan berlaku time 2. Now depending pd ubat unntuk kecutkan balik part tu. tapi sux,ubat tu xbaik utk otak gak. kimo n radio stil buat, tapi kurang efektif kt otak. mmg sume orang tetap akan mati. but bayangkan la kalau org tu dihukum mandatori..maybe leh dpy pengampunan..then xtau bila hukuman akan dijalankan. Sakit gila. ten, try bawak bapak ko gi Darussyifa'. kat gombak. InsyaAllah sembuh. Ramai dah gi. But dalam kes mak aku,maybe dah qada' dia camtu...

Milah: thanx girl